well..will things get better in time???...i tink is hard for me cos it seems worse...will given stay out my bso..yesterday nights out was gone becos back to camp at 9 plus..is another stupid outfield trip..tis time deal wif a few wild boars...have some quite close contact wif them..what amaze me is the moon on the last day of CNY..the moonlight is super bright that he outshine most of the stars and left me wondering where is my beautiful stars...thinking back was i spend 6 days out of the 15th days CNY outfield tis year and few days in camp...i guess is the worst CNY of my life ever..it sux..miss so many things..bso was kind enough to interview me and console me..but i jus say to him..something is cannot be replace de..not everytime u have the chance..i may sound rude or wat but tat the words in heart and it causes me so depress and unhappy..i dun mind goin outfield if they can put it on weekdays..back in camp and more bad news...after seeing my super depress face bso explain to me nicely and really scare tat i got into depression..he give me 3 days off and a stay out..somehow i guess i deserve a bit more..6 days of dirtiness and insomnia...hais.....things jus dun get better.......

well..today was given nights out by bso..reason is to meet the jus ORD PERSONNEL...meet them at serangoon garden de ashtons....first time eating..and was told tat the serving like very small so acted smartly i order a double up fried chicken..awhile later i was stunned..it was 2 very big chicken cutlet..once again i kena ah hai..last time eat botak jones also..super ah hai sia..i can only finish 1 and half..and it come with 2 side dish..they serve good potatoe salad and baked potatoe..and is really better than botak jones...was around 20 plus ppl also..whenever siganls platoon gather is like gang fight..so cool and happening,,mayb tat the fun side of army..u got to know more frens and experince things u hardly will experience in life...after tat wanted to go lan shop de..but no space and no members so we turn to RK house..not to eat prata but to drinks and talk cock..after tat most of them book in and a few of us went home..reach home 10 plus..and now is 2 plus am..i dun know shall i sleep not..i scare i cant wake up on time..


is still greyed and dull..will it really get better..

10 months more to shout ORD