yes.....i jus shot myself to death.........i having serious depression.......100 percent super boring....and guess wat i need to book in on tis sat night again...wtf......yes..last week i did tat also..how sad..2 sunday burn..6 days of jungle....and u cant bath and sleep well and all i get is jus 2 days off for my sunday burn......is really fucking hell.....next week when i go back i will have ippt and the next day goin for imt......then the following monday and tuesday i need to go for range...is really fucking hell...i am goin crazy soon.....i scarifies my sunday and i cant watch soccer matches..i cant play my mahjong..i dun get to sleep on my bed...and u know how many weeeks i never get to see her already.......i am totally regret tat i raise up my hands on tat last time..i tot it was only 1 week but i am so wrong...........fuck up is all i can say.....some more today is the unit force us to take off de....how sad.....also nth much to do........so boring can....i am really sick and tired......i guess i deserve more den wat i give bah.........i jus cant understand y the world is so toally unfair or is it me who feel it only......................it is so screw up..tat is only one things tat can make me laugh but jus a bit is tat finally arsenal sign a new guy...and u know wat i cant watch their match and is against spurs....is really fucking hell..i learn my lesson now...heroes really die early.....no one will appreciate wat u give de...is time to be more selfish and only tink of myself le..i have enough.....i only left 10 month and i wont will a mr nice guy again..is not worth it..imagine urself tat if u was me...u are goin to book in tis sat 1130pm..and sun u need to wake up at 7am..to prepare and wait for ppl to get ready and after tat u need an hour plus to reach tat place and tat place is the same as the last week place and u goin to see them doin the same training again jus tat tis time u are goin wif diff guys....and u jus get 2 days of off..for ur 2 sunday burn...and u need to let those creatures bite u and u will be super dirty and dusty..no bed jus bench and u will not get ur full sleep...and u will face wild boar attack also.....how will u feel??jus 2 words FUCK UP..............



is no more red becos it is so grey and dull for me...save
me...fill me wif colours pls.....