hais...MAY is not a good month for me......lots lo unhappy and fuck up things happen jus in a flash...hais...first thing was arsenal lose to man u in the semi...we was not playing very well and let united win easily....i was super sad to saw arsenal lose like tat and i was damn disgust by the diver ronaldo...so what he play good football he got a fucking cocky attitude...all this year i think he is the worst united player i have seem...he dive and cheat and complain and cry like a baby...every time he fall he will look at the referee and complain...after tat match my sis also say that he super hate ronaldo la and she cant understand y so many girls like her la....although the good thing is i never watch tat match is not i think i will be super sad and cry bah....after that read the newspaper den i know that one guy killed himself after the match wearing arsenal jersey....was super sad to see that while all the united fans in my camp laugh at him la...and i tot to myself if the situation does not get better i think i gonna be the second arsenal fan to die le bah...i dun know how long more can i stand that stupid camp..hais.........hopefully fabregas and co. will stay and thanks walcott for staying...he is great...tis week sun we gonna play chelsea who lose to barcelona in the another final..i hope we can win those sore losers...i glad arsenal players did not fight wif united player after the lost...at least we know that we deserve to lose..no one is to blame...we hang our head high up....in arsene we trust...give him one chance..dun sack him...spend some money and try agin next season...hais..totally depressed..


now back to camp stuff....mon morning was super busy cause of her once again...went to find her about the making sign extra duty thing and she threaten me that is i dun sign the 2 i will be in more trouble..so no choice jus blame my luck and is the first time since i enter army that i tio extra duty...but i guess more and more will come..7 more months to ord and my life now is fuck like hell....why?and monday we was atually given nights out to go home take our thermometer but she make us stay and do finish the stuffs...and in e end we do til 9 plus and we damn tired and dulan...then the next day i got fuck because she say we cant finish it and i never tell her...hais...i think she hate me alot bah...hais......life sucks....or is it the world is never fair to me for the past 20 years le........life seriously suck...hais...and today we was jus late abit to set up the thing and i got screwed again...so the punishment is 1 hour later book out and 1 hour earlier book in on mon...hais....and she say my performance is no good and make me sound like a useless freak...hais.....i think is all jus my fault bah.....the rest of the 7 months i dun know how can i survive when she taking full control of our platoon...hais...as for next week is my mob manning period...must stay in camp...bookin in tonight cause tml doin duty...next week book in on sat night cause got a big excerise on sun morning...the 3rd week fri got duty again den last week sat i got duty again..sad right..hais..and thanks to her.....the world is never fair..justice not longer exist...is jus a matter how long and how much more i can endure before i got depression or do silly things.........BRRRR....i seriously fucking hate myself....