now is 0652am..and i still not tired..i have not enough sleep but i not tired now and cant sleep..hais..today went for imt den book out at around 5.30pm den daryll send me home using his bike...i guess if dad know about tis i will be so dead bah..but i enjoy riding bike den cars..cause the wind and the speed is super de la..reach home do nth much..dun even bother to eat dinner.....more and more sick of things happen in camp...more and more empty and depress for me..it dun seem to get better so soon..i dun know how long i can take it..next week i guess no night out for me..mon and tues go for range..the condition of me now is very hard to get marksman so i will aim for a pass for my final year bah...hais den thur i will be on duty..so sian..cant go home til fri...the more stay in camp the more depress i am la..so bore can.....den jus now 12am went to sis house play mahjong..lose 2 bucks only..play damn fast..end at 3 plus..reach home and til now cant get to sleep....was listen to radio..fm 933..den i tink got bug or wat they play 不值得 by 梦飞船 4 times la......after each song..i was so shock la..is a very nice and meaningful song lucky..was playing football manager to pass time also..i guess i shall sleep after sun rise...THE ONE AND ONLY
well..will things get better in time???...i tink is hard for me cos it seems worse...will given stay out my bso..yesterday nights out was gone becos back to camp at 9 plus..is another stupid outfield trip..tis time deal wif a few wild boars...have some quite close contact wif them..what amaze me is the moon on the last day of CNY..the moonlight is super bright that he outshine most of the stars and left me wondering where is my beautiful stars...thinking back was i spend 6 days out of the 15th days CNY outfield tis year and few days in camp...i guess is the worst CNY of my life ever..it sux..miss so many things..bso was kind enough to interview me and console me..but i jus say to him..something is cannot be replace de..not everytime u have the chance..i may sound rude or wat but tat the words in heart and it causes me so depress and unhappy..i dun mind goin outfield if they can put it on weekdays..back in camp and more bad news...after seeing my super depress face bso explain to me nicely and really scare tat i got into depression..he give me 3 days off and a stay out..somehow i guess i deserve a bit more..6 days of dirtiness and insomnia...hais.....things jus dun get better.......well..today was given nights out by bso..reason is to meet the jus ORD PERSONNEL...meet them at serangoon garden de ashtons....first time eating..and was told tat the serving like very small so acted smartly i order a double up fried chicken..awhile later i was stunned..it was 2 very big chicken cutlet..once again i kena ah hai..last time eat botak jones also..super ah hai sia..i can only finish 1 and half..and it come with 2 side dish..they serve good potatoe salad and baked potatoe..and is really better than botak jones...was around 20 plus ppl also..whenever siganls platoon gather is like gang fight..so cool and happening,,mayb tat the fun side of army..u got to know more frens and experince things u hardly will experience in life...after tat wanted to go lan shop de..but no space and no members so we turn to RK house..not to eat prata but to drinks and talk cock..after tat most of them book in and a few of us went home..reach home 10 plus..and now is 2 plus am..i dun know shall i sleep not..i scare i cant wake up on time..is still greyed and dull..will it really get better..
10 months more to shout ORD
yes.....i jus shot myself to death.........i having serious depression.......100 percent super boring....and guess wat i need to book in on tis sat night again...wtf......yes..last week i did tat also..how sad..2 sunday burn..6 days of jungle....and u cant bath and sleep well and all i get is jus 2 days off for my sunday burn......is really fucking hell.....next week when i go back i will have ippt and the next day goin for imt......then the following monday and tuesday i need to go for range...is really fucking hell...i am goin crazy soon.....i scarifies my sunday and i cant watch soccer matches..i cant play my mahjong..i dun get to sleep on my bed...and u know how many weeeks i never get to see her already.......i am totally regret tat i raise up my hands on tat last time..i tot it was only 1 week but i am so wrong...........fuck up is all i can say.....some more today is the unit force us to take off de....how sad.....also nth much to do........so boring can....i am really sick and tired......i guess i deserve more den wat i give bah.........i jus cant understand y the world is so toally unfair or is it me who feel it only......................it is so screw up..tat is only one things tat can make me laugh but jus a bit is tat finally arsenal sign a new guy...and u know wat i cant watch their match and is against spurs....is really fucking hell..i learn my lesson now...heroes really die early.....no one will appreciate wat u give de...is time to be more selfish and only tink of myself le..i have enough.....i only left 10 month and i wont will a mr nice guy again..is not worth it..imagine urself tat if u was me...u are goin to book in tis sat 1130pm..and sun u need to wake up at 7am..to prepare and wait for ppl to get ready and after tat u need an hour plus to reach tat place and tat place is the same as the last week place and u goin to see them doin the same training again jus tat tis time u are goin wif diff guys....and u jus get 2 days of off..for ur 2 sunday burn...and u need to let those creatures bite u and u will be super dirty and dusty..no bed jus bench and u will not get ur full sleep...and u will face wild boar attack also.....how will u feel??jus 2 words FUCK UP..............is no more red becos it is so grey and dull for me...save
me...fill me wif colours pls.....
第二顺位 - 罗志祥
一直是我 陪你去躲 回忆里的雨
你无心的叹息 有心碎的声音
他的好 他的坏 他的不安定
他的故事 是我和你 爱情里的乌云
从我爱上 爱他的你 那个瞬间起
一直是雨天 你只爱雨天 我用伞保护你
亲吻着 你苦涩 味道的微笑
闭着眼睛 我明白你 想念他的秘密
我一直在 第二顺位 爱着你
一直从雨天 一直到阴天
一直到晴天 你逃离过去
我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天 一直到今天
一直到永远 我相信 是我最爱你
聆听你说 抱歉多过 你说我爱你
你困在雨里 我困在雨里 我的伞 湿淋淋
『没关系』是我最常说的一句
就让我等 就算我冷 至少我陪着你
我一直在第二顺位爱着你
一直从雨天 一直到阴天
一直到晴天 你逃离过去
我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天 一直到今天
一直到永远 我相信是我最爱你
我一直在第二顺位爱着你
一直从雨天 一直到阴天
一直到晴天 你逃离过去
我一直在第二顺位等着你
一直从昨天 一直到今天
一直到永远 我相信是我最爱你
well..finally home sweet home...3 days 2 nights was spend at the training area at gedong camp..never bath..never sleep well and lots of stuffs...went back to camp on sat night..was so fuck up la..still dun know y they choose sunday to move out..sun morning wake up at 6plus...went to prepare and pack den move out le......took around 1 hours plus to reach there...damn long and heaty..afterall was quite relax at there..jus cant sleep properly and need to stay awake to mends the comms...back hurts when lying down on the bench..cos is damn hard la.....1st time outfield and see they training....nth really much happen....jus super boring...the only i like is tat the stars at night...no fireflies was spotted..quite sad...but stars is the only thing i like afterall...i can spend hours staring at the stars and think of lots of stuffs.....they are so near but u cant reach for them...was back to camp at 5pm today...went back of cos is the bath for super long time la....is so refresh and cooling..den faster change and get ready for night out le......others was telling me lots of bad news.......feb will be a busy month and mar also bah......the bigger among all bad news is..MAYB I AM GOIN TO THE SAME PLACE OUTFIELD NEXT WEEK AGAIN!!!!!!!....wtf and i guess is 80 percent comfirmed...jus wait for BSO orders bah..i dun wan to go..i wan my weekend de......i super long never go town le la.......i still wan my movies de....of cos my soccer matches..hais..hais......and then on 13th feb,16 and 17..i goin for my year 2 range...after tat end of feb i might goin outfield again...and tat is one more in mar.......is really WTF........i goin depressed real soon..i need sometime to chill and relax pls............i wan my weekends and i need to study real soon.....................................i am so goin to bore to death........................pls save me from all tis crap..........is all so dull and greyed................i need colours in my life
